still there.

This the sea, their shadows in madcap deaths; where is the garden beyond the moon, which leaves a ghost that I once knew as myself? I sway between finger and root; small hands desert me in memory

free, I am not the skin
of your lip, tree,
and I am not looking now

to be dead and wink as I’ll see the moon across the flowers and yet with dreams, they are a corking perfume; I would forget from this planet dream. A gleam for a woman unlike the years, I lie in the cruelest despair (not) from my dream, eras nine or more whenever, I’m still there.

© 2021 lucysworks.com All Rights Reserved.


Written for the dVerse prompt: Write a haibun following the theme of a new beginning or new year.

Seemingly a dark poem, but it’s about my own reflection of letting go from memories and people.


  32 comments for “still there.

  1. January 4, 2021 at 3:21 pm

    You write the most unique posts!

    Liked by 4 people

    • January 4, 2021 at 3:36 pm

      Well, I try. 😁 Thank you so much, Lillian.

      Liked by 1 person

  2. January 4, 2021 at 3:24 pm

    This is a haunting piece, Lucy and I like the way you’ve played with the haiku structure a little so everything is unexpected and catches the reader off guard. Love the look of your new site, too!

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  3. January 4, 2021 at 3:31 pm

    I can feel the sense of letting go, but at the same time may be falling apart a little. Unique haibun

    Liked by 4 people

    • January 4, 2021 at 3:37 pm

      You’re definitely right, letting go and falling apart. There’s a metamorphosis in both and I did entwine those themes as well. Thank you so much for your feedback and analysis. ❤

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  4. Beverly Crawford
    January 4, 2021 at 3:51 pm

    A new blog look, and a poem perhaps less dark than usual….perhaps a letting go? May 2021 bring you all good things!

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    • January 4, 2021 at 3:57 pm

      Thanks, Beverly! I appreciate that and I hope the same for you. ❤ ❤

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  5. January 4, 2021 at 4:00 pm

    A poem of letting go, as you said, and perhaps rising from dreams? This was my favorite line:
    “I am not looking now
    to be dead and wink as I’ll see the moon across the flower”. Beautiful and hopeful, to me, but then I hear the moon humming, so. . .😏

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    • January 4, 2021 at 8:45 pm

      Rising from dreams for sure, and maybe rising above them too? Dreams cannot always be dreams. 😀

      Thank you so much for your lovely comment, Merril. I hope the start of your 2021 has been well!

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      • January 5, 2021 at 8:53 am

        Thanks, Lucy. The start has been pretty good, and I hope yours has, as well!

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  6. Glenn A. Buttkus
    January 4, 2021 at 4:53 pm

    Another fresh blog look (you & Lisa) I applaud your audacity with the form. Sometimes I place the haiku in the middle, or have 2-3 haiku. We should incorporate style from classic forms, not be enslaved by them. I liked ” I sway between finger and root; small hands desert me in memory.” I always look forward to reading your work.

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    • January 4, 2021 at 8:47 pm

      Aww, thank you so much Glenn!

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  7. January 4, 2021 at 4:59 pm

    Oh the imagery and depth of description 😍

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  8. January 4, 2021 at 6:40 pm

    I’m fascinated by “ I sway between finger and root “ mostly because I don’t know what it means. It’s fun to say though!

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    • January 4, 2021 at 8:48 pm

      Hahaha, thank you Misky! The imagery is just what comes to my mind and what I see. Emotionally, it clicks for me but realistically, it doesn’t. I like to think of it as the sway of leaves and nature changing among doubt while still ambivalent, if that makes sense. I’m glad you enjoyed that line. ❤

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      • January 5, 2021 at 4:37 am

        I love that line! My initial thought was toes as roots, and toes digging in for support and balance.

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  9. January 4, 2021 at 7:59 pm

    I’m with Misky, I love the image of swaying between finger and root. You are “still there” though I feel as always with your poems, you are a mist in the trees, just barely there, but watching everything with pen in hand! 🖋

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    • January 4, 2021 at 8:50 pm

      Aww, thank you Tricia. How sweet of you to say! ❤ ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  10. January 4, 2021 at 8:41 pm

    Nicely done Lucy. I am sure this year has made us all take assessment of our mortality. I loved your image of lying in state ….”and I am not looking now

    to be dead and wink as I’ll see the moon across the flowers and yet with dreams,”

    winking as you see the moon shining through the window!

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  11. January 5, 2021 at 2:39 am

    This pretty much blows me away. I seriously have no idea how you put those words together like that. TBH, it leaves me feeling somewhat poetically challenged 😉

    A lovely, lovely, lovely. poem!

    -David

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    • January 5, 2021 at 8:55 pm

      Hahaha, thank you! I’m flattered. 😀

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  12. January 5, 2021 at 3:47 am

    I really like the structure of your haibun, Lucy, with the haiku and self-exploration at its heart. I too have swayed ‘between finger and root’. Whose small hands are those that desert in memory?

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    • January 5, 2021 at 8:55 pm

      Thank you, Kim. I’d like to think the small hands are indicative of anyone or anything that could have been holding me back. 🙂 Sort of letting go of it and letting it leave.

      Liked by 1 person

  13. January 5, 2021 at 9:26 am

    It’s intriguing. Since a haibun isn’t fiction, I want to know what it’s about, but all I can do is guess.

    Liked by 1 person

  14. January 5, 2021 at 11:31 am

    The end of a year is the perfect time for evaluation, letting go, finding new journeys. I enjoyed this haibun. Happy New Year, Lucy.

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  15. January 5, 2021 at 1:07 pm

    “This is the sea, their shadows in madcap deaths;” — WOW. This opening is stunning and it just keeps getting better. 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

  16. January 5, 2021 at 7:23 pm

    A different approach for the haibun. It is more cryptic than most but I love the language and especially this line…”where is the garden beyond the moon, which leaves a ghost that I once knew as myself?” I visualized this whimsical place of reflection and growth

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