Novel Collaboration (Identify): Chapter 10.

Previous chapters:

Chapter One (Psyche) by Lucy.

Chapter Two (To the other side) by Andrada Costoiu.

Chapter Three by B.V. Stratton.

Chapter Four (The fateful night) by Smita Ray.

Chapter Five (Insight Part I) by Amitbhat0912.

Chapter Five (Insight Part II) by Amitbhat0912.

Chapter Six (They’re still out there Part I) by Lucy.

Chapter Six (They’re still out there Part II) by Lucy.

Chapter Seven (Cycles of violence Part I) by Lucy.

Chapter Seven (Cycles of violence Part II) by Lucy.

Chapter Eight (Fragments of the past Part I) by Shweta.

Chapter Eight (Fragments of the past Part II) by Lucy.

Chapter Nine (Flashes from the past) by Smita Ray.


Chapter Ten (Be the hero you weren’t) by Lucy.

Italics indicate flashbacks, memories, and past events.


The deeper Tom emerged in the cave, the worse his memories were. Fragmented moments bewildered by a small presence—his daughter. Each memory tussled and coiled around his brain, making him wonder how many years had passed. Did he really get amnesia from drowning or was it all part of the loop? Fuck, if he knew. His mind was re-engaging him into cyclicity. He sought every breath he could, the damp cave, as he went, draining him mentally. Gathering himself, he marched to destiny—the easing trail of catastrophic darkness. What was its source?

Dwindling, all without realizing the eyes watching from above, he sank into refuge by a stalactite-type structure; he was concealed in the dials of oak-wood leaves and shadows—intertwined with the presence of echoes, far-off echoes. Pacing closer, he detached from his comfort, seeking out the dangers that lied ahead.

His heart was pounding.

He traced around his path to mark it. He didn’t want to think about the ruthlessness and isolated reality he had to survive, but it was all he had to accompany him in the hood of darkness. In haste, he curved his pistol back to his hand, sneaking between the alleys of the shadows; he tried hard to listen for more life beyond these depths but there wasn’t any from what he could tell.

The escapee trudged ahead, a willing soldier in a pursuit. Somehow, his hands shook at the gravity ahead—unnatural wisps escaping and burning his chest as a smoked cocktail. Memories were flooding through him—memories that he didn’t want to deal with now, memories that would only distract him.

He hung his head low, calculating what must be done to preserve their futures and the strength of their reality that was slowly being grafted away. Memory alteration was first; he dreaded what would happen if captured. He had heard tales of physical alteration beyond the mutants he interacted with.

Zara’s lips pursed into a frown. “Tom, did we do the right thing?”

“I hope so,” he gritted in the sideway winds. His hand penetrated hers as they knelt in their hideout. “Clarence would be a risk to take with us.”

“That’s not it,” Zara shook her head violently. “We left her behind. We left her and Lauren behind.”

“Lauren doesn’t know that!”

“I don’t give a shit about that. Our child is going to be stuck here. We’re abandoning her.”

Tom let himself divert to the sunset feast ahead of them, an expel of blood-thirsty howls in the silence. During these moments, he let himself recollect the barren mutants he crossed paths with during his alteration loops, and while Zara may not remember, he sure as hell did.

“We didn’t abandon her,” he stroked her cheek. “We gave her a chance to live. We both may die in our escape when we hit the labs, you know that as well as I do. If we survive, we’ll be able to send for help.”

“Help from where!? Is it all in your delusions of grandeur?”

“This is not—”

“Oh!” She laughed bitterly with a distinctive hiss that stirred Tom’s gut. “But don’t forget, my Tom, I went along with it. But, you never told me what we had to give up.”

“You know it wasn’t like that. Not at all.”

“Don’t I…” She stumbled back, withdrawn from his touches.

He didn’t know what else to say. “I love you, Zara.”

“I’m not too fond of you,” she gave a sad smile, grasping the finality of the idea. If they were to save their daughter, they would have to remain undetected. Dragging Clarence along is making her a risk when all they wanted to do was give her the life they never had.

“Make me a promise.”

“Anything,” Tom breathed.

“You’re so whipped,” she shoved his chest with a scoff. She then turned. Her hands trudged through the dirt they crawled on, seeking mutants or sentries in the perimeter. The vegetation around them was dying—all evidence that burned on their skins like a fresh blood or piercing concoction, with the thorns aside from each monstrous bush and chasm; the gorge that was going to claim the life of them both, she knew.

“If one of us is… is not here whether we die, are turned into mutants, or have memory alterations, please—please let’s try to remember her.”

Tom nodded, rubbing the mire off his hands. “Okay.”

Zara looked back solemnly, as well conflicted, a wave-line from ahead forming into the strands of trenches as a mixture of darkness coincided. “I love you too, Tom,” she said.

“I left you behind, Clarence,” Tom was mumbling. He rubbed his face; from such cruelty he was handed with in survival, to the pristine innocence of his dear daughter… He left her behind. They both did.

She was forgotten, alone, and above all, she was scared. His lip convulsed and quivered, eyes wincing, throat with a thirst for water; his mouth was so dry. He felt a dizzying occipital headache come on, and rubbing his neck, he chanced a look at the ceiling almost letting out a meek yelp.

Eyes of different colors were above him, glissading of death and watching like ice. “What the fuck?” He grabbed a small stone from one of the ground cavities off the cave, striking the roof. He almost pissed himself when the eye he had hit slowly blinked, penetrating a layer over it immediately like a bruise to clot the red overflow that pervaded and leaked from its cornea. Tears had pushed out of it like puss, falling onto the ground as a light rainfall.

The escapee shivered.

“Dad, are you taking us to the movies?” the kid looked expectantly at Tom.

“Um… No,” he focused on the rain. “I’m not, Clarence. You’re going to spend a few days at Aunt Lauren’s.”

“Why? Did I do something?”

The silence was complimented by a stump in the pathway they took, edging closer to crafty symmetrical forestry; and in their depth, it drowned the universe between them all, a mysticism that was present and yet eluded them. Zara was the first to speak. “You never did anything wrong. It’s just that you haven’t seen Lauren in a while and she has some fun stuff planned when you get there. It’s a surprise, my milaya,” her voice was a blossomed warmth. “Did you pack all of your toys?”

“Yes, mommy,” the child stated with a theatrical roll of the eyes. “Like I would pack without them, you should know that! Don’t be like dad.”

Tom, wounded, gave a slight playful gasp. Both mother and daughter laughing at his misfortune, eyes of stone pitying him, while his old wound blossomed like a Pieridae. He fell onto his knees.

Tom’s eyes shot up, glittered in nerve deep tingles, almost as bubbles of adrenaline spiked from his bloodstream to his back. His wound had still miraculously healed, nothing to suggest that it had been reopened. Just as there was nothing to suggest what had flashed before him was true.

A hand appeared like a paperweight creased over his chest, eyes a dead veil from above, that however the mist was, he could not actively look away from the subject. A cold heart stared back at him, leaving aside the proximity of them both—Tom flinched at the contact.

“If you thought any of it was real after all, I’m sorry to take that away from you.”

He was calculating the fastest way to leave the woman’s grip; his pupils roaming the enclosure to find his next move. He had none left he realized when he found himself pacing away, red claws collecting the tiniest scrapes of flesh down on his chest.

“You’re not real,” he murmured, kept murmuring, then gasped feeling around for his waist. “I saw you and I killed you.”

The woman had an entrancing laugh—his ears crumpled at the sound, almost giving way to bursting his blood vessels. Gathering his might, he rammed her in the nose with his shoulder using the slightest second to pull out his pistol. The sideway winds tolled and he pressed the trigger.

She closed her eyes calmly as blood leaked from her nose—a bullet did not echo through her skull. Tom went through his wishes and miracles as a beggar would have done. Wasted. He used up what was left of his clips, the rest (hopefully) with Lauren as he couldn’t take every single bit of the ammo. And almost as if a sinkhole had emerged from beneath, he felt carved against the ground; two feminine hands molesting his temples.

“Who—who are you?”

“You may call me Anastasia.” She discarded the gun and laid a hand over his throat.


They moved into the pitfall of darkness. Lauren’s hand clung to Artemis’s as the surroundings morphed into an even more flattering darkness. Artemis could no longer rely on her vision instead illumining the depths with a small lighter Lauren had tucked away. The further they crossed into the embellished crystal chains that set aside them, they witnessed schizo blemishes of carvings—different figures, one covered in soot and banished in clouds of an icy sequence—betrayal and anger as if a red lotus had crushed the submersion and ripples on the wall. A concoction of subsumed tragedy and blood.

If it were war, it was as good as a guess as any.

Lauren drowned in their coiling hazards, parallel to the artistry that depicted danger and the circumstances they were in. She traced along her mind to figure why it kept looping back to her, what these suspended images floating around meant. She asked Artemis about it—which after taking a step back, a deep trance from the light engulfed the wall.

The mutant’s eyes rattled against each scripture and carving. Her face submerged in the blackest depths, draped over the sick paleness of her skin. “This is foreign to me.”

“Figures,” Lauren huffed. She stared at the carvings; etches of black had fallen like ashes. A bubble could have floated above her head, the visualization of soot, vengeance, and freedom in her mind’s eye that warily it was a distant dream giving invitation to forgotten memories.

Lauren bit down on her tongue so hard, it could have bled. She slid down to her knees, stifling the screams as they peaked out in murmurs. She shuffled to her side.

Artemis stood on the defense, facing the human. “What’s going on? Did something inject you? Is it a creature?”

“N-no,” she breathed, briefly glancing up. Her face was barely visible. “I just…”

“What?”

“Just—just sit with me. Tell me something, maybe something a-a-about yourself. Anything. Please. Fuck.

Artemis’s lips parted in confusion, her eyes taking in the human kneeling, pleading in front of her. Usually, she took it as a sign of surrender or weakness from her prey but it bewildered her nonetheless—What was she doing, if not that? She responded, soberly, shrugging her shoulders back. “You lead us here in the hour of night-slayers, and now you let your fear incapacitate you?” There is no hidden knife behind you at this point when we’re choosing to wield one ourselves, the mutant bit back the thought from her tongue.

Lauren sniffled, turning away from her… Partner? Girlfriend? “Fuck you, Artemis. All I needed was just—just something to try and stop it.”

“Stop what?”

“Are you dense? I’m freaking the fuck out! I’m having—a panic attack. I don’t, I don’t want to…” remember. “Leave me be,” she shook.

The mutant blinked, cocking her head like a cat—at least, that’s what it looked like to Lauren. She stayed silent until Lauren scooted away from her effervescent shadow; the cave had only felt smaller, with a set coldness enveloping her chest, adorning her in a tightness she hadn’t felt since childhood.

Artemis slid down on the ground with her. She closed her eyes, leaning her head against the stone, and breathed out once. “Something about me… Um, when I first saw you and your brother, I thought of ways to kill you both.”

It took moments before she spoke. “Tell me something that wasn’t common knowledge.” Lauren pushed at her in the chest playfully until Artemis impelled her back; they rolled around like some moonstruck fools in the dying grasslands.

“I’m a good hunter, Lauren,” she had a bloodthirsty grin. “There’s no way you knew I was watching you.”

“Fine. I was oblivious. I didn’t,” she chuckled. “I’m not going to lie, you really scared the shit out of me when we met.” She sighed when they untangled themselves. “Though, you’re sort of an animal. They’re your instincts, I guess. Like you said, we have to survive for the most part. At least, that’s what I try to convince myself of…” Lauren glanced away.

“Hmm. I don’t really understand you—humans. I mean, I don’t… get it sometimes. I don’t mean to be cold to you, but just tell me what to do; I’m not good at something unless it’s killing.”

“I,” her eyes glazed over as she glanced down. “am, or was, having an anxiety attack. I get them here and there. They’re sort of like—you know when you feel threatened and on guard?” Artemis nodded, probably reminiscing of when she made others feel that way. The human couldn’t imagine anyone, at this point, getting the upper hand on Artemis; she went undetected, she had alternative routes.

But, she remembered, the squirrel incident

Lauren swallowed down her chuckle with a cough. Rubbing her face, she continued, “You have to prepare yourself for an attack from a predator, but mostly it’s in your mind; it’s something that could be a reminder and it hits you until you feel sick, dizzy. You feel engulfed in a tunnel, you’re dissociating, you’re in a black prism while staring into a mirror. It first happened when I broke out of the loop, and then a memory—a memory I didn’t know existed—I remembered it, some of it. And I’m so lost and so confused. It’s too much! How many years went by? How do I not remember? It’s… Ugh, I’m so fucking lost!”

Artemis crossed her arms. “It’s a memory gap, Lauren. She took years of all your lives. It’s not just the memory loops and concoctions. There’s more she’s likely capable of. But look, this is her M.O. This is what Anastasia does and she did it to me too. I barely know myself, I feel so dissociative of my past. I barely remembered it even existed, that I wasn’t born as… this.”

Lauren knew she how hard it was to discuss the mutant’s appearance, so she assimilated it then diverged. “I remember something with—with family. I couldn’t protect someone, a kid, I think? I don’t know, it’s not coming back to me yet… I–I thought, I can’t, I’m still recovering from the loop, did I not really break it? I don’t understand. What are these memories?” A morbid thought arose, what if Tom couldn’t recover completely either? Maybe he didn’t have head trauma or amnesia…

They were the same, they were all the same. A big possibility through the years wasted.

“Give it time, mia cara. I’m sure they’ll come back eventually?”

“Yeah. Eventually.” A pause. “Look, don’t think I forgot, I’m not buying that shit of an excuse you gave that you witnessed her rituals. It bothers me why you’re familiar with her methods, her “M.O.” What you are you not telling me?”

Artemis stared at Lauren, and when she did, her expression softened just a bit. “I’d rather not say.”

“Oh, come on. I just shared with you some traumatic shit. The least you could do is share some back.”

“Once we kill her, I promise I will tell you. But, I can’t right now. Not when she’s still alive.”

Lauren groaned into her hands. “You’re such a bore.”

Before Artemis could puff out a rejoinder, they heard screams in the further bowels of the cave. Lauren twisted her spear in her hands as the mutant steadily lifted her up on her shoulders, following the point of vociferation bereft of command. Maybe Lauren was right on her instincts to explore in the night—they may have been someone’s last chance. The stones were thick on mutant feet, but Artemis’s callouses were enough for now; she may discover bleeding in the day of or the next but that was a bridge to cross after this is over, when it finally hits morning. Just at least four more hours until sunlight, she could have thought.

Lauren, however, grasped harder on Artemis’s collarbone, hands accidentally tripping over her chest. Mortified, she bested her grip back on her shoulders—yep, the shoulders would do. For a moment, she wondered if the screams were to lure them to a monster, to a mutant. But, she had to trust Artemis’s instincts on this.

It was all she had left.


22 Comments

    1. Not quite! 😄 Zara was a sort of snake-like mutant wanting to kill anyone in her path, while Artemis is more cat-like—who enjoys killing but only when used for survival. I can see why it would seem like that especially as I introduced Artemis similarly to B.V.’s introduction of Zara.

      I wanted to have parallels between them but with some contrasts. For instance, Zara was a lot more warm while Artemis is more reserved and secretive. Even more, Zara worked with the island while Artemis works against it. The mutants in this story are bound to be similar in some ways (such as with animal instinct) based on Anastasia’s serums, but the difference depends on the character. Lauren and Tom, for instance, were failed experiments as they couldn’t respond to the trials completely. It didn’t take which is rare—probably why you won’t find a lot of humans on the island.

      And yes, nearly 3,000 words but it really was worth it. Your encouragement means a lot. Thank you so very much. ❤️

      Before I forget, feel free to take on chapter 11 whenever you’re ready. 🙂 I’m not enforcing the one week limit anymore.

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      1. Yes, Zara and Artemis are mutants and I must say their characters are very well portrayed.
        I was wondering how the tussle between Tom and Anastasia will pan out. What next? Apparently, Lauren and Artemis are just around the corner, soon to join in the feud.

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        1. Honestly, I am not sure how the battle between Tom and Anastasia should go. In my opinion, maybe some bloodshed and on Anastasia’s end, a realization that she can’t kill Tom just yet, perhaps?

          Yep, they are ready to dive in and have that reunion with each other lol. I personally believe that with Clarence, we can use that as a turning point of negotiation between the characters. Everything in the memories are not what they seem and Lauren may slowly remember the child at least once confronted with Anastasia.

          Now with the topic of Clarence, this could go two ways where she is or is not alive. It may also give us liberty to introduce a few new characters in the mix (I have a chapter draft from one of our previous collaborators a few months ago who gave me permission to weave it in the story if it fits).

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        2. Yes, sure thing! It’s by Amit and it shows more background on how people are recruited on the island. It doesn’t feature any of the main characters but this was originally written for chapter eight; it is unfinished as something came up on his end. I am not sure how we can weave all of it together, but I think we can probably pull most of the ideas from the draft (while giving Amit his full credit) and apply it to the story in different ways.

          Want me to send it through your contact page or should I just send it to your email?

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  1. It’s baffling but I haven’t been getting any of your mail. I hope now the contact page will work. I regrettably apologise for the inconvenience. Thanks for helping me recognise the trouble. If you still have patience, I implore you to try sending one more time.
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